It's War!

                                The last two months was a struggle, but isn't something always is. Think that is just part of life. For me personally I'm been struggling with the one thing I dealt with most of my life, something I thought wouldn't come back since I accepted Chirst. But that's not true. I was stuck in a little corner once again and felt no way out, seemed like I was doomed either way. That's my metaphor. It was satan pushing me, or he tried. If it weren't for calling my best friend I would've been in deep trouble. I didn't want to believe I needed to get help again, but in my heart I knew the truth. I just was hoping for the moment to pass. Turned out one of my med was on too of a low dose, go figure I guess. But what I want to point out and make clear is that satan will use anything and everything agaist you, he did with me and it was so hard because it felt as the whole world was pushing me away. I didn't realize it at that point, but my best friend got me the very help I needed. Don't let satan win the battles cause when the war comes it can very easy for him to win that one and that's the one we cannot afford to lose. This is my understanding and its the way I see it. But don't get me wrong, if I'm am wrong about it please let me know by the comment below.
              I was told in the (mental) hospital by the doctor that its not satan just a chemical imbalance, partly true but its satan too. Its satan having hay day with me. I tried to tell the doctor, explain to her what I meant, but she looked at me like I was just crazy. I just laughed later on cause there's always gonna be someone like that, she even said she was a Chirstian but don't think she really understands.
             The night coming back home I got very upset with one of my diagnosis, but I decided from that moment on satan can't do me that way anymore. So I refuse to let a diagnosis rule my life or tell me who I am. I know exactly who I am, I don't need papers, doctors, etc. to tell me anything. My point is I choose to raise above it and live my life Godly as I possibly can. I pray to God more then I ever have and it helps more then I ever thought. God is so amazing and He reminds me He is there. I like that cause lately when its hard it don't seem like He is, but He is. It's very important to not only know that, but to believe it. Have faith no matter what.
            I wrote this for a reminder for myself......